HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADYA

hey, nadya !

Hap ha haappy birthdaay ....

you're 14 now, a number older than me

and... wish you all the best and God bless you

i'm sorry i can't give you any gifts

but, i'm sure i've pray for yiu and wish you all the best

btw, thanks for ask me to come to ur house, WHAT A HAPPY SURPRISE ?

delicious sphagetti, taart and...

great game, you know what game that i mean

and... i have a great day at 22 June 2010

Happy Birthday Nadya... my-partner-in-crime

that was a pleasure to shared ahything and knew someone like you

okay, and tell your mom, i'm thankful for everything today, and for the black chinesse oil too !

okay, don'y act like a kindergaten kid anymore !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY again

hey
almost 1 am/pm ? 1 in the morning
haven't sleep yet as usual
cause i just finished watch Into The Wild
another Kristen Stewart's movie
yeah.. just a minor role there, but she's gorgeous and incredible as usual
she was sing in that movie, and... her voice was pretty good !
so girlie... so different w/ her 2 other songs that been the soundtrack of The Runaway
and aaa pretty cool movie

interesting and well, so... attractive
the plot, the story was great and aaa... you should check this one out
and this one was adapted from a novel w/ the same title
who's the writer ? i haven't know yet
well, i just wanna share

i wanna be a soccer player

i wanna join a soccer team

and i wanna figure it out

and i wanna be a great player

i wanna play more and more

i wanna play soccer in the rest of my life

because i jus realize that i loved to play -not just watched it

and i wasn't bad at all, if i try and try harder, i'm sure i can be a good player :)

so, are soccer is my passion ?

i don't think so

but i enjoyed to play it

and i wanna played more and more in the rest of my life...

and... guys, if you plan to play futsal,

ask me to join please ...

i need more exercise to make me play better

okay ... :)

i am weird

or i was weird ?

no, i am weird and strange, and i am stranger now !

i just couldn't think clearly and logically

you can believe if i always slept over 1 am ? so weird

yeah since past couple days, since i did love rob-and-sten too much

it like i was maniac... i was addicted ...

however, that was weird...

they weren't a football team, football player, or anything like that...

they were just a boy and a girl...

no !!

they were just a man and a little lady that too famous and couldn't lived easily, normally, and aaa just lived like a normal people, at least like their life before twilight

they've made me been a different person since couple days ago

i though...

yeah, they were like my treasure, and i was obsessed w/ my treasure...

the secret treasure that hasn't opened 

and i should open slowly, to made sure that it was a treasure

yeah, open my treasure slowly- or -try to figure them out,

their personality, their personal life, their perspective, their minds, their characters, and who they were 

and they were such a drug for me

my own personal brand of ecstasy

one day w/out them, means no day

i rather to die, that i spent my day w/out them 

so weird you know ?

but.. yyeah they were my idol, my trend my everything for couple times later

and i loved them so much, kristen especially they were adorable w/ their way and their style

and i just unconditionally and irrevocably adore them !

i will not say that they were cute together or somethin' like that

i just want you to know, they were my everything

just like what does Adam Lambert means for Vesa

or what does your boy/girlfriend means for you ...

and what does Rob-and-sten means to me ?

a lot, they were the part of myself

am i disgusting ?

YES I AM

am i annoying ?

and i'm so sorry about all of my disgusting posting

but, i just try to be honest and not pretending anything or hiding anything

and this blog that i loved and trusted so much was a medium to share what i feel

and i just wanna share

and you all can delet all of my posting if you want

that's free and easy to do !

and God Be With Ye

i've ran away
from everything everyone everywhere
i stayed home everytime
sleep, eat, turned on my pc, surfing and browsing

i found my self hiding from school stuffs
try to ignore them
and didn't paid attention to them

i just sick and tired w/ those school stuffs, f---n stuffs
they just like a s--t for me...
such a waste and made me looks like an underdog
i need go to school
but i got nothing there
math, physic, biology, and the other damned f---n objects
what for ?
why i should studied those stupid things ?

because life was about score
and school was about score
so, that's why... school stuffs was important for my parents
not for me

so, keep away from me, i'm thirsty and i'll drink ur blood !

Did you have any great friends ?

No ? Yes ?
Me too ...
I have sooo many great friends around me...
You're my great friends...

But, have you ever felt so hurted ?
You've been hurted because one of your great friends ?
No? Yes ?
Oh, me too !

So what did you do, if you've been hurted and would die slowly ?
fight ? or forgive her/him ? or just did nothing ?

I'll choose the third choice, i thought
i won't hurt her/him because...
hell ! he was my great friend ! he was the one who made my day was bright
altough she/he has hurted me, or yeaaah killed me slowly,
she/he was my great friend and i won't bring her/him down...

I'm 13 and I'm not a kindergaten kid anymore ...
So, i'll keep my behaviour
and thank's for hurted me, MY GREAT FRIEND :)
God Bless You !

Okay, finally, I'VE WATCHED MTV MOVIE AWARDS 2010 !!!!

hmm... it been long time since i've waited for this time !

So, hell that f--- Global TV !

They were said that MTV Movie Awards 2010 would presented at 8 June 2010

But... hell ! why they presented it today ??

Okay, that doesn't matter, because the GOOD NEWS IS I"VE WATCHED IT !!

Oh My Gosh !!

I just i couldn't said anything, it just so, REMARKABLE for ME !!

Because i could seen Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart !!! 

YIIIHAAAA !!

And, okay i've knew that they'll accept A lot of the awards, they would become the winner.

Like The Best Male Actor, The Best Female Actor, The Global Superstar (for Rob Patz) and THE BEST KISS !! and also The Best Movie .... !!!

But I just felt so Attracted and aaah speechless

And especially when they were did speech acceptance for The best kiss ! :p

So, ridicolous and awkward but... Okay I adore them so much !! They were gorgeous !!!!

And... I could seen that Rob Patz was bring Zac down, because He was THE BAST MALE ACTOR NOW ! So, Zac is nothing !

And... Twilight was been The Best Movie (ever for me) and... Harry Potter was nothing !!

YEAH ! THAT HARRY POTTER, HARRY POTTER was NOTHING !!

and i just tought that Robsten WERE togheter ..

it according to their gesture, the nervously of Kristen when she has the best kiss, she just stumbled and looks so nervous, and somethin' like that ...

and, when Rob Patz accept the Pop Corn, He said thanks to KRISTEN !! 

and hell yeah couple confirmed ! :p

And, Twilight Saga : New Moon has been THE BEST MOVIE !!!

HUUURAAAAYYY ! yes, i knew that was ! :)

So, why i just being a gossip girl right now ?

I'm sorry, i just obsessed w/ them, w/ twilight stuff and the cast and Robsten

And i'm so sorry it was disgusting,

I just wanna share here :(

Sandra Bullock and Cameron Diaz were great,

And i just dislike Katy Pery or Kattie Pery or somethin' like her ...

And aaa yeah Rain was fanless i tough, he just a newcomer in Hollywood tough he was has alot of fans in Asia !

And... why Peter Fecinali said that they (twilight cast) loved JUSTIN BIEBER ?

ridicolous....

and... Rob Patz was f---n attractive ! And Kristen too !! hell yeah !

And !! GO TWILIGHT !

I knew I talked too much

and thank's to Global TV, btw for the LATE SHOW !

So, GodBeWithYe

degradation

movie...

i loved watching movie ...

i love rent some movie...

i rent a movie,i choose a movie according to the actor ... HAAHAA

but, if i couldn't found any kinda righ actor, 

i'll chose i'll decide to rent some movie according to the genre,

Okay, and... i'm not kinda people that like action movie ...

oh, i hate action movie -___-"

and... i'm not really like kinda science fiction movie, that just told us about the genetic, time machine, aliens, the end of the world or somethin' like that... it were so.. disgusting FOR ME !

and... i rather to horror than science fiction...

but, i'm not really like horror too.

and theen, i just bored when i watched animation movie like yeaah, UP or Alice In Wonderland...

Because, it just kinda boring and yeaah so meanless i tough, so, i;m not really like those genre.

So, the best genre for me is just DRAMA !!

HAHAHA...

Because most of drama movie, were played by any great actor like LiLo, Cameron Diaz, Ann Hathaway, and the rest... and Emma Roberts too !

And then... after i watched drama movie, i just could see another side of myself, somethin' like yeaah different perspective of mine...

and drama movie was really could change my mind sometimes...

made me realize so many things in my world that must be changed ...

Yeaaah, that just me, again

Kristen Stewart

She's so GORGEOUS  !!
And her behaviour was good enough...
She doesn't pretend and made a kinda FAKE act for anybody...
She was honest and nice... i guess !
She was GREAT AND REMARKABLE ACTREESS !
altough i just like her and named my self as her fan since past couple weeks...
i've adored her so much since the first time i saw twilight ;p

Okay, she is 20 now.
And she belongs to Rob Patz ;p
And they should marry

but the bad thing about her is...
She was smoker !!!

But i still adore her, and her co-star Robert Pattinson

HAHAHAHA they're so.... Incredible and ... ugh, i can't say anything !
And I LOVE THEM BOTH SOOOOOOOWWW MUCH !!!

Yeah, I'm obsessed w/ them !
A day without them, it means no day ...
So, yeah awkward i think...
but, that just me guys !
i can do nothing when i was obsessed w/ somethin'

So, Kristen Jaymes Stewart GREAT

#nowplaying : Robert Pattinson, Pixie Lott, and Paramore
#nowwatching : Twilight, New Moon, and Hannah Montana The Movie (everlasting movie)
#nowreading : Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn, and The Last Song

so, that was very very unimportant -___-
i just freakin' out YIIIIIIHHHHAAAA !
I'm stress !
That my unimportant weeks just end...
and that wasn't happy ending ...
So, Did i care about it ?
ABSOLUTELY NOT !

So, what am i talking about ?
I don't know, i've said that i was just Freakin' out ...
So, don't hate me,btw

I'm not in the mood to write some beautiful words...

My confession

This confession isn't about a BOY...
But, i dedicate this one for... well for one of you...

Well, i've made a kinda stupid decision...
I just couldn't though so well at that time...
You've knew what the mean of 'it' for me...
but, why you couldn't kept my feel ?
why you couldn't though that i would HURTED if you did it ?
okay, mm... actually you didn't mean to hurted me,
you just try to kept ur good behaviour to ur FRIENDS...
so, that's not totally ur fault, anyway...
And, i apologize
for all of my stupidness
all of my reckless maybe ?
yes, i was reckless, because i couldn't kept my promise...
i still did the same WRONG DECISION

And, altough now we just the same...
like a few months ago, but i still feel so...
ugh REGRET ?
Yepp i am ! I'm regret for those stupid act !
I just lose you, and i couldn't feel that you were kinda important person for me...
i realize that you were my friend indeed...

You bring me to the strange world, that i might be stranger there...
but you influenced my self so much...
And that was a positive changes...
And, hell yeah

I just apologize for all of my stupidness...
And i just hope that we will be the same ... again ...
i've knew that we BELONG HAHA !!
so, forgive me and let's be friend .. again ...

SO, I'M JUST ZHA ! AND I ALWAYS MADE A WRONG DECISION ...
*and i'm sorry, i'm not good enough at english